Since You Don’t Have a Baby Book. . .

10 Mar

Whine: Been fighting a major case of the Weepies all day. (see below)

Cheese: A year ago today (at exactly this moment, in fact) Lil’ Sis (finally) made her long-awaited (and long-overdue) entrance into our world and our hearts.


SPOILER ALERT: This post may make you cry. Especially if you are a Mommy. Don’t say I didn’t warn you.


I have to admit, I’m using you guys. It’s true. While you folks at home are sitting there thinking that I blog for your entertainment, I’m sitting here thinking that maybe if I blog enough of what’s going on, it’ll ease the tidal wave of guilt I feel over neglecting my children’s baby books. At least Big Sis has something written in hers besides her name. I’m not even sure I’ve written Lil’ Sis’ name in hers. 

So this little blog is my place to keep track of which kid did which thing when so that some day when they ask me those all-important questions like “what was my second-favorite toy when I was thirteen months old?” I can possibly throw together an answer with at least a kernel of truth in it. I have a deep-seated fear that one day they will all end up in therapy because I didn’t remember/write down/scrapbook enough of their childhoods for them.

But the more I think about it, the more I realize that I’m probably not doing this for them. At least not mostly. I’m doing this for me. I need to chronicle every little hysterically-funny thing they said. I need to desperately hold onto ever picture of every outfit and every glance and gesture. I need, in some form or fashion, to commemorate what this rite of motherhood is doing to me. To my heart.

It’s breaking it.

They make you love them so much you think you might actually just implode from all the sweetness. But then in a moment, they’ve changed. And each change brings a new side to this little person, this little part of you, that you never knew before. And you’re so happy to celebrate the milestones: the smiles, the coos, the walking, the talking, the throwing food onto the floor seventeen times in a row. But you kinda miss the old stuff from yesterday, too, even the spit up and long nights and washing mashed peas out of hair, again. And all the new stuff just serves to remind you that you don’t get to keep them after all. That if you do your job well, they leave. So forgive me if today I’m just a little bit melancholy, my baby just turned one. (Does Hallmark make cards for that?)


For Lil’ Sis on your first birthday:

I love that “passive” labor with you took 10 hours and “active” labor took 45 mintues and TWO epidurals.

I love that when you were born, you were the biggest baby in the maternity ward that night. (9 lbs 8 oz; 22.5″) and my OB congratulated me on the birth of my “third grader” and had to flip the end of the bassinet down in order to stretch you out and measure you. 

I love that you look exactly like your Daddy.

I love how for the last twelve months, you’ve been content to ride around on my hip in a sling (even when we went bowling.) 

I love that you lunge out of my arms in a fit of squeals and giggles when you see your Big Sis.

I love your sideways grin and that you say “cheese” for the camera.

I love the way your red-hair curls just a little in the back (especially when Big Sis styles it with a little bit of Elmer’s).

I love that you attack me with kisses when I least expect it.

I love that your first word was “bath” and that you will crawl to the tub from any room in the house upon hearing the word. 

I love reading books, singing songs, taking walks, feeding ducks, playing chase, and having snuggles with you.

I love to see how God designed you. The way you look and think, the things you like and don’t like, the person you already are all show me a little side of him I had never known before.

I love to see how you are growing and changing into who you are and will be.

Thank you, Lil’ Sis, for coming into my life and turning it upside down. I love you.


Chloe's First Day

Sideways Cheese

7 Responses to “Since You Don’t Have a Baby Book. . .”

  1. Louanne March 11, 2009 at 3:21 pm #

    As encouraging mom’s to make baby books is a part of my job (really), the words and stories are much more important than that pictures. Your blog will be a treasure for your kids as they grow older – it’s a peek into their mommy’s mind which is probably changing as often as they are. Priceless!

  2. Alyssa March 11, 2009 at 5:31 pm #

    This is worthy of many gold stars. Award them to yourself for a job well done!

  3. rachelle March 12, 2009 at 1:01 pm #

    i looooove the bottom pic of her. it captures so much of her stinky, sweet, sideways cheesy personality.

  4. Karen March 14, 2009 at 7:38 pm #

    Oh man, I think you just inspired me to actually scrapbook! I hope the feeling lasts till I have time…

  5. TJ Wilson March 14, 2009 at 10:13 pm #

    happy birthday to your sweet girl! wow. great photos, great post. keep writing & recording…

  6. Sars March 15, 2009 at 5:56 pm #

    Hey, all,

    Thanks for the encouraging words–you make me want to keep blogging!


  7. Sarah April 30, 2009 at 6:51 pm #

    I LOVE this! I’ve been hoping my blog this year will suffice for Adeline’s baby book too.

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